I remember

I remember walking
up the hill
I remember waiting
at the clinic
I remember seeing
the 2 lines
I remember feeling
top of the world
I remember telling
everyone
I remember checking
my tummy
I remember working
on a snowy day
I remember thinking
I should be careful
I remember going
up the steps
I don't remember
how I fell down.
I remember holding
my tummy
I remember thinking
my god, my baby
I remember rushing
to the clinic
I remember waiting
anxiously for the Dr
I remember ,Dr speaking
you are ok.
I remember asking
for a scan
I remember being
denied
I remember praying
for you
I remember the bleeding
3 months later
I remember rushing
to the emergency
I remember praying
desperately.
I remember seeing
the numerous baby pictures
I remember thinking
this will be a girl
I remember the annoying
sonologist
I remember not seeing
the heart beat
I remember thinking
this can't be.
I remember feeling
my world ended.

To the baby I lost, I want you to know, I still think of you everyday.